Dear greenie 16,
I can only say that to forgive whomever it was who betrayed you would help you to begin healing. Clean up your side of the emotional "fence" and don't worry about the other side. To not forgive is to continue to allow the situation to wreak havoc with your emotions. I don't know which paraliminal would help you to find forgiveness within yourself, but perhaps one that requires you to have a particular idea in mind upon beginning to listen to it.
I hope you find relief from your dilemma. Don't let it eat at you - please do whatever you can, whatever you have to do, to address the matter and find resolve. Letting it sit only allows it to grow. Put it behind you quickly so you can move on.
I wish you success in this situation, and I will keep you in my prayers. The prayer of faith is very powerful as it allows God to enter into the situation and bring it to a good end. He has only good in mind for you!
With love, Koco
