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STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!
Blue_Butterfly..
Hiya..
As I am typing this I am in two minds, of if i should continue, and not post it, or if i should just go with what comes, out.. It seems that I am goig to just go with the flow, and say what comes to mind.
Relationships are a little bit like jigsaw puzzles, in many ways, we have to work at building them, first with our self.. them with the rest of the world, if you have the big picture in front of you then, you will know, what paths to take, and how you want things to ture out, Now i know right now your having a hard time cos you have posted your issue, yet like anything, if we allow it to overwhele us then we will, get court up in it flow, yet if you take a little time and ask your self, in the bigger piture what will you feel about this time in ten years time? more then lighty you wont even remember, so take a little time now to think about all your good points, remember your best times, review, whats happend and aim, for a better time, with all the skills that you already have.. self-esteem.. supercharger, would be good, I also think now option gen... would help to point you in a more healthy direction..
Anyways I hope My clumsy post was helpful..
May your best day be with you always.