Hi Alex,
I wanted to let you know how your advice helped me and to thank you very much indeed!
As you suggested, I tried the New History Generator with the idea of getting under the grief without putting the onus on myself to identify specifics, and I did just that. The second time (of two), I especially remembered your idea of being a good parent to my young self who goofed and hurt herself, etc., and had a breakthrough. No memories came back to explain anything. The day after both sessions, however, I realized major things about general attitudes I and others held in my early life and how that affected me then. More important, and truly astonishing, I realized with felt-thought that I can indeed rewrite my history, using my present self as a kindly good parent and guide, so that things that used to bother me terribly may still bother me somewhat, but now I can effectively deal with them. Just this morning, for example, I did a mental "trial run" of a conversation I know is going to come up (I know this person very well), and instead of getting upset, I imagined myself calmly countering the patronization and then mockery I'm going to hear. By the way, I've done these rehearsals in the past and they've always worked well, so I have no reason to believe this will be any different.
I didn't do Self-Esteem Supercharger because all this made me feel so great about myself it seemed unnecessary. I did listen to Ideal Weight last night and not one angry or sad feeling came up. I really feel back on track. This is so great!! THANK YOU!!!
I hope your life is going well for you too!
Best wishes and God bless,
Danielle
