Good grief!
Really, grief is good, (not pleasant) as long as you work through it completely and then move on.
I think it was Bly who wrote that grief is like a murky pond, and a pearl is on the bottom. The only way is to dive all the way down, then come back up.
It does not have to take long, but it needs to be complete...
As for paraliminals, try New History Generator. I love that one, I find it very useful.
Dive in, and come back with the pearl!
vitaman
