Hi Alex

And thanks for provocating thoughts. I can see you are doing your best to break my trance (at least that's what's slowly happening.) Your comments make me go deeper to find the answers and at some point I will see the whole thing in an entirely different light. I'm aware of that possibility all the time.

To continue the discussion: I think I'm "vulnerable" because the "bad" things tend (have tended?) to stay in my behaviour and the good ones tend (tended?) to go away.

Usually I take the whole package, the whole person, and take every behaviour they demonstrate and try them on to see if they fit. I sort of become that person. I'm Bernie Saunders right now, I listened a part of the course in the morning?

...And somehow it usually has happened so that the unpleasant behaviours stay longer or forever (!?) Obviously I need them for something? Otherwise I wouldn't choose to take them as my behaviour. Now we are getting somewhere. This is something for me to think about.

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