Hey man my email is Hachita4849@aol.com. I've been through some rough times but I find your move 2000 miles away and everything you've been through to be inspiring. You've got alot of heart man. We all came into this life without our asking and at times it may have felt like a meaningless roller coaster but we're here and while we're here our ultimate purpose is to live fully and just connect with those around us unselfconsciously. Just surrender, get involved in something, open yourself you've got nothing to lose and no rush, I'll say a prayer that you find your way. Take care.