Hi Meeladaj,
Telling your life is an experience. Thank you for your sharing.
Though my teens and 20's I wanted people to like me, to accept me for who I am. Cause I was lonely.
I began practicing meditation and found my inner peace. It all begins within.I soon met friends that I enjoy being with.
Short story: "A young man traveled to a new town. Before he entered the town he saw an old man on the road and asked what kind of town it was. The old man looked up at the young man and asked him how was life at the town he came from. The young man said his town was hateful and people ruthless. The old man told the young man that this town is no different.
On the same day, another young man came to the town and asked the old man what kind of town it was. The old man looked up to the young man and asked him how was life at the town he came from. The young man said his town is prosperous with joyful people every where. The old man told the young man that this town is no different."
Meeladaj, before you go to the party to make friends, you must first bring the spirit of friendship with you.