ES & after the honeymoon - 08/08/09 07:02 PM
Dear All,
First I want to express my delight and gratitude at being in contact with so many fellow ES travellers. This forum really helps me to stay focused on ES and finding my bliss and my true calling in life.
Secondly, I am making progress. That is to say, I confirm yet again that ES is changing my life for the better. Not ES per se, but the continuous time, thought, and action steps that ES and this forum is encouraging me to take.
Now, about after the honeymoon.
Please bear with me if I articulate this badly, but these understandings and experiences are brand new, thus I am a novice at expressing them.
When I first started ES (back in March I think), I felt a wave of pure, unadulterated bliss. All I needed to do was listen to Jack Canfield speak and I felt marvellous. I spent quite a time on a permanent high.
I don't know exactly when the high faded, but real life started to intrude once again. I wanted to remain glued to the positive, however life situations reeled me back to planet earth. And most of those feelings were not good, not upbeat.
Now I have the benefit of hindsight and I can say that I have made incredible progress. While I beat myself up for wading through negative life situations, and I felt guilty for indulging my negative-side, I could not do otherwise. Happily I can now confirm that issues which caused me genuine pain have now dissipated. They are gone.
1) Gone is the stress and tension surrounding my mother coming to live with us. There is nothing at present to release. So that is one major source of negativity just evaporated.
2) Gone are the negative feelings I had regarding my decision to leave Ireland and sell the house of our dreams. I felt very hard done by (turkey and eagle dramas). ES and the work I have put in have enabled me to change my perspectives. At this point there is a flurry of interested parties in our house, it could sell at any minute, and I gain total financial independence. Right now I cannot imagine why I went through so much pain and didn't realise that this is the best possible outcome.
3) I have felt a lot of discomfort and dissatisfaction around my current work (teaching). In the blink of an eye I have found a new life focus which is in total harmony with my husband. A week ago I was in the doldrums at returning to school, now I am planning a living which brings bliss and companionship to both my husband and I.
So how did I get from depressing A to happy point B? Simple enough really. I stayed focused on ES. I spewed out my thoughts and feelings on the forum whether they were positive or negative. Others supported me lovingly and made me feel OK about myself. I was determined that I would not settle for less this time round. And my subconscious came up with perfect solutions to each 'problem'. I did need time and I did need to FEEL dreadful at times.
What am I trying to say here?
OK - and true ES disciples may not accept this - I now believe that also focusing on negative life aspects is part and parcel of finding my bliss and generating an "abundant and meaningful life" (thanks for your glorious 4 word definition, Niceguy!). After all the pain and guilt at feeling negative, I look back and see the negative feelings were necessary to show me WHAT I NO LONGER WANT. It was impossible for me to simply flip a switch and magic these thorns in my side away. They were a full and active part of my life. I needed to work through them, rearrange my perspective, ask my subconscious to deliver a happier outcome.
I'm burbling a bit now (difficult still to express) so I'll conclude with this. I think that people who have created the life of their dreams CAN think positively most of the time (aka Canfield). After all if you are living the life you chose to live, what is there to be negative about? However for most normal folk, people like me, who are only a few steps up the ladder, well we carry around plenty of life circumstances that are far from satisfying. These need to go. So at this point, ES for me, is about rearranging what doesn't work at all well while simultaneously striving to manifest a lot more bliss, meaning, and abundance.
It is so exciting to contemplate living in financial freedom. Watch this post.
Adieu,
French Claire
First I want to express my delight and gratitude at being in contact with so many fellow ES travellers. This forum really helps me to stay focused on ES and finding my bliss and my true calling in life.
Secondly, I am making progress. That is to say, I confirm yet again that ES is changing my life for the better. Not ES per se, but the continuous time, thought, and action steps that ES and this forum is encouraging me to take.
Now, about after the honeymoon.
Please bear with me if I articulate this badly, but these understandings and experiences are brand new, thus I am a novice at expressing them.
When I first started ES (back in March I think), I felt a wave of pure, unadulterated bliss. All I needed to do was listen to Jack Canfield speak and I felt marvellous. I spent quite a time on a permanent high.
I don't know exactly when the high faded, but real life started to intrude once again. I wanted to remain glued to the positive, however life situations reeled me back to planet earth. And most of those feelings were not good, not upbeat.
Now I have the benefit of hindsight and I can say that I have made incredible progress. While I beat myself up for wading through negative life situations, and I felt guilty for indulging my negative-side, I could not do otherwise. Happily I can now confirm that issues which caused me genuine pain have now dissipated. They are gone.
1) Gone is the stress and tension surrounding my mother coming to live with us. There is nothing at present to release. So that is one major source of negativity just evaporated.
2) Gone are the negative feelings I had regarding my decision to leave Ireland and sell the house of our dreams. I felt very hard done by (turkey and eagle dramas). ES and the work I have put in have enabled me to change my perspectives. At this point there is a flurry of interested parties in our house, it could sell at any minute, and I gain total financial independence. Right now I cannot imagine why I went through so much pain and didn't realise that this is the best possible outcome.
3) I have felt a lot of discomfort and dissatisfaction around my current work (teaching). In the blink of an eye I have found a new life focus which is in total harmony with my husband. A week ago I was in the doldrums at returning to school, now I am planning a living which brings bliss and companionship to both my husband and I.
So how did I get from depressing A to happy point B? Simple enough really. I stayed focused on ES. I spewed out my thoughts and feelings on the forum whether they were positive or negative. Others supported me lovingly and made me feel OK about myself. I was determined that I would not settle for less this time round. And my subconscious came up with perfect solutions to each 'problem'. I did need time and I did need to FEEL dreadful at times.
What am I trying to say here?
OK - and true ES disciples may not accept this - I now believe that also focusing on negative life aspects is part and parcel of finding my bliss and generating an "abundant and meaningful life" (thanks for your glorious 4 word definition, Niceguy!). After all the pain and guilt at feeling negative, I look back and see the negative feelings were necessary to show me WHAT I NO LONGER WANT. It was impossible for me to simply flip a switch and magic these thorns in my side away. They were a full and active part of my life. I needed to work through them, rearrange my perspective, ask my subconscious to deliver a happier outcome.
I'm burbling a bit now (difficult still to express) so I'll conclude with this. I think that people who have created the life of their dreams CAN think positively most of the time (aka Canfield). After all if you are living the life you chose to live, what is there to be negative about? However for most normal folk, people like me, who are only a few steps up the ladder, well we carry around plenty of life circumstances that are far from satisfying. These need to go. So at this point, ES for me, is about rearranging what doesn't work at all well while simultaneously striving to manifest a lot more bliss, meaning, and abundance.
It is so exciting to contemplate living in financial freedom. Watch this post.
Adieu,
French Claire