Loverofcat1948, I have several comments. I think that the feeling exercise are done too quickly in the AFL course. You sound like you've got the basic structure correct.
Feel - don't label / judge the feeling
Feel more aspects about the feeling.
Feel even more ... the energry
Feel the power in the feeling (This one, is a sometimes for me. Separately power and energy sometimes happens sometimes doesn't)
Feel love for the feeling.
Feel love for the energy.
Feel love for the power.
Feel love for feeling the feeling.
Feel love for feeling love for the feeling.
I sometimes use information for the word energy; not always and not for the whole exercise. Sometimes just as a transition. My logical mind can understand how the feeling is information, but my other than conscious mind can feel the energy. Sometimes this word transition helps to make the mental transition from analyst to observer / experiencer.
Don't do the exercise and say "I am I getting it, yet?". It has the same effect and saying out loud "It's quiet now". You are breaking what you are trying to create.
You have to release your expectations (judgement) of the exercise. Just do it and experience what happens.
As for feeling the shape size and colour, I have a couple of approaches. They are revolve around being aware of your body's state, not your mental state.
The first suggestion is not to feel an emotion, but to feel a physical sensation. The pressure on your butt or legs or feel. Feel the breeze or the stillness of the air. Become aware of the sense of touch on the back of your hand, or the side of your hand, or the palm of your hand. Be aware of your breathing. Pick something that you can say "Yes, I feel that.", then really explore that feeling. Where does it start? Where does it end. How intense is it?
The second in regards to emotions. You know you are in an emotional state because of a physical state. You have learned to label certain types and combinations of physical sensations as specific emotions. You have the labels and your logical mind recognizes them. Now, your being asked to drop the label and just experience the physical aspects.
Your mind and body have a two way form of communications. Your body experiences the world and sends messages to the mind to interpret and analyse. There is a strong connection between sensation and thought. It is so strong that your thoughts will create sensations in your body.
I recommend that you work on the physical sensations. Find one sensation and progress with the Feeling Exercise as far as you can. Experience whatever you experience. Don't label the experience. Your experience is ABSOLUTELY PERFECT for you. It is the experience you need at the moment you are doing the exercise. It may be different from mind. It may be different that what you will experience next year, next week or even in the next second. Don't judge the experience, just do the exercise and be fully in the experience. Don't step out to analyze it, to compare it, to direct it, to judge it.
Now I just said don't direct it. Well, now I'm going to say once you've gone through the exercise on one specific sensation. Find another and do it again. Don't worry if you don't do all the steps of the exercise. You'll get there when it right for you to get there. You'll be surprised when it happens. You won't see it coming. Partly because you're not looking down the road, you're right here right now.
After you've tried the exercise with a few sensations, see if you can be fully aware of two sensations, at the same time. Try being aware of all of them, at the same time.
You might try lying down. Definitely don't listen to the recording while doing it. You know the exercise you can hear Paul's words without a machine. Take your time and take what comes, whatever it is.
The more you do it, the easier it will be to do. The more you do it the more complete / deeper your experience will be. Don't get me wrong, you are always experiencing this. It is always happening. It just that you've learned to let your logical mind run your life and it has greatly reduced your conscious awareness of the experience. It is collecting the information / energy / experiences and labelling them and processing the labels. You can become more aware of the sensation by doing the Feeling Exercise. With some regular use of the exercise you will find that you are always aware of your physical state. You will be hooked into the information that your other-than-conscious mind is generating. That's what those emotions, or mentally generated physical sensations, are. They are information from your other-than-conscious mind.
You can use this information to decide if you want to use this information to do something different from what your conscious mind would normally do. You can use your insights from this awareness, and the information in the AFL course to direct your life in directions you choose. You can choose to break the programming of the conscious mind. You can break the well know, well rehearse sets of actions and reactions. You can choose to recognize and set of beliefs and associated responses and choose to do something different with your new awareness. You can choose to recognize your trances and choose to do something different with your new awareness.
Well I hope there are not too many typos and missing words in that. I also hope this will help you.
You ARE perfection.
Iam2
I have listend very carefully to Paul's explanations and the best I can infer is that the feeling exercise is an attempt to encourage you to meditate and think about nothing.
I find it best to scan my body and simply observe feelings without thinking about yesterday, or tomorrow. From what Paul says, this seems to be the aim of the exercise. I've found that if you really get absorbed in this then you will find that your mind becomes calm and stops chattering. I believe this is the state that you want to be in for manifesting! ;-)
Here you need to notce. I feel depressed....
How do you know that you feel depressed? It's just an abstract word that describes the feeling. So forget the word. What does depressed feel like? If can't be nothing because you labelled it!
If you're feeling frustrated, check it out how do you know that feeling is frustration and not gladness? What is it that makes that feeling depression? That my dear friends is a paradox. The label means exactly the same as imagining what colour it is what shape it is... then will notice some about the feeling, there is a vibration, (all vibration really is is movment).
If you're really lost feel the air moving through your nose as you breath. Have you ever felt an itch? Follow it... how do you know it is an itch? really feel that.
Be there in the now with whatever physical or emotional feeling that you are aware of.
One word of advice, take it lightly. It's really just training of bringing yourself to the here and now. If you itch... notice that you're feeling it before you scratch it.
Alex
Alex
You're asking us to tell you what you should be experiencing. That's difficult because you're asking for labels.
Have you ever really felt the force of anger? So much power that you could smash something? If you feel it, recognise that "energy". That's power!
Let go and just feel. If you don't feel vibration,(yet), let it go. Stay with noticing the feeling.
Get out of the head, let go. One can notice the energy/power in eating a strawberry. But let it be okay to notice what you notice.
My grandfather had a saying. If I don't get there today, I'll get there tomorrow. If I don't get there tomorrow I'll get there the day after for sure. It was what he told relatives about coming to visit, his nature was not to be rushed about things. In his view if it was important and he intended to do it he will do it. It's how he lived Paul's expression "go easy on yourself". There is no right or wrong way to feel feelings. You're not getting it wrong. So just feel, don't analyse everything that Paul says. Next time around it will be a different experience again anyway. Just like no 2 days are ever really exactly the same.
Alex
I hear and I forget.
I see and I remember.
I do and I understand.
Well doing some of these exercises and meditations and just doing and doing and doing it has change how I understand the last line. I can know how to program (or any other skill), but until I actually do it I don't really understand it.
Alex seems to keep bring up the Zen idea of being in the now. Well are real zen method is experiencing everything now as if for the first time. Meaning you don't have labels for them yet. You don't know what the experience is you just explore it, discouver it.
If I gave you something in a paper bag and told you it was something you had never experienced before, you might throw the bag away. However, you might open the bag up and see a green sphere with purplish markings on it. You would feel it's weight. You would feel the surface texture. You would feel the surface elasticity. You would experience it's temperature and thermal conductivity.
Okay I'm rambling again. I just saying set aside an hour. Lie down in a comfortable place. Give yourself permission to use the hour for the feeling exercise. Choose to use this hour for the feeling exercise. Decide you will experience whatever happens, and it is perfect for you. Then do the feeling exercise. Don't use a tape to guide your. You can have mood music on if you want (waves, forest breeze, meditation rambling music) if you like, or just in silence. If you use only a half hour before you get up find. Bonus time for you.
I was near the end of my third 1/2 hour session before I had a wow experience. Every time I've done it later on I've had a different experience. Sometimes I get a big wow, sometimes now. They are all perfect for me. You may never experience what I do. However, you will become more in touch with yourself and less quick to accept your automatic labelling.
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I'm not Paul, but here is my take on the power. The power isn't locked in the feelings. Feelings are filled with power. However, the locking comes from you choosing. Before you can choose you must be aware. The feeling exercise helps you become aware. To become aware of yourself, your mental processes, your self-messages, your labels, your behaviour patterns. The unlocking of power comes from taking that awareness and choosing to direct your energy, however you are experiencing it now, in a manner that supports your desires / goal / purpose.
Enough rambling, or is that preaching, for now.
You are perfection.
Iam2
Your just being very clever at this time :^)
The way I dealt with it is simply to feel. That's it. Just feel and be with whatever you are feeling. You label it this, you label it that. Whatever.
I didn't feel a compulsion to do exactly what Paul said to do in a way I figured he wanted me to do it. I find him, often, to be coming from a belief system that is inherently contradictory upon examination.
I figured there was some value to the exercise, so I simply did it. If I had trouble noticing the energy or shape or whatever of a feeling or appreciating the feeling as a manifestation of my being without labels (which, if I were to, would be labeling the feeling as something I had manifested, see the contradiction?) ... I'd just go, "to hell with it" and simply feel what I was feeling, simply be with it.
Basically, I think here you are activating your feeling intelligence to bring yourself into the moment and get yourself out of verbal loops and traditional, compulsive approaches to problem solving (trances).
You find yourself, after a while, no longer involved in running around like a rat in a maze, no longer trying to solve feelings as if they were problems, and begin living in the moment. Your body begins to realize that, hey, this is ok. You eventually begin to learn more on a level deeper than linguistic thinking.
So, yeah, the course content IS self-contradictory. A lot of LSC stuff is. But, beyond explanations and points of view that I do not agree with, there are things of value in the course.
If you do the exercises, you are bound to learn something. Don't let yourself be swayed too much by the activity of your mind in terms of trying to explain things and to be logical. That isn't, I think, what the exercise is about. And you don't have to buy Paul's explanation for it. You can find out for yourself and come to your own conclusions.
I guess the best way to do it is to shift your attention from labeling to feeling. You are going to label. That's what the conscious mind does. You're always going to have a conscious mind. So let it label. Put your attention on feeling and being with the feeling, appreciating the feeling.
I, personally, do believe that feelings can be experienced as having shapes, colors, vibrations, etc. Do they *really* have these attributes? I don't know. Who cares? I think it can be helpful to know them in such a way. If you aren't getting a sense of it, just do what you're best at for now, and maybe something will pop up later?
And there is always acting as if you could (which is what I've done on many occasions) and just going with whatever happens.
Good luck.
[This message has been edited by babayada (edited July 17, 2004).]
In other words the power is breaking the trances we impose upon ourselves.
Alex