I was born in a poverty. There are three of us in the family my mom, my sister and me. Our dad had died long ago. After I have finished my high school mom could not provide my eduction at the university so I had to work and study by correspondance. I dont like it at all! I always wanted to study not by-correspondance. So once I found out about the Silva Method and started using it in practice it helped me a lot. Then I decided to meditate and create a billioneer man who would love me and whom I would love and who will marry me and provide my education. With the help of whom I will be able to start my new life. Life full of money and happiness. I imagine him for many times. I imagined his face, his eyes, even his trait. But I didnt meet him so far....why?

As long as you hold on to the wanting the universe cannot provide it.

Alex

Hurm.

How about believing in yourself and building the life you want yourself?

Relying on others for your happiness makes them resentful of you. They may love you at first, but chances are they will grow to hate you.

Better to follow your bliss, build upon your *own* happiness so that you are a self-reliant, complete individual and not a parasite.

In imagining this perfect man, I fear that you may be building a crutch for yourself that will end up making you a cripple when you already have the ability to walk on your own.

I think in some ways you are right.
But it has been long in my memory that my own chances to become happy and rich are zero. Dont know why may be because of my own life has never been so simple and for me to become rich and pay for my eduction will be easier if I will have a sponser.

Well, think of it this way ... it is in your brain and body that the chemical processes involving happiness occurs. It is going to happen in you if it happens at all.

If you are incapable of being happy it doesn't matter whether it is you who are the source of happiness or someone else. You won't be able to to happy for long.

If you find that others CAN "make" you happy but you cannot do it for yourself, then maybe it is your belief that you can't and perhaps a lack of experience that are the culprits. You can certainly do something about that.

Besides, people who can make themselves happy and are self-reliant are more attractive.

As for education, there are a number of grants and scholarships that are available. Do you want a sponsor or a sugar daddy?

I knew a girl who had a sugar-daddy. Her life was a miserable roller-coaster because of her dependence on this man. Whether she was happy or practically suicidal with depression depended on whether or not he called that day. Do you want that?

You can also be happy without being rich. A lot of rich people are freaking miserable.

I believe Alex and Babayada have given appropriate answers. Using self-hypnosis, I focused on the "essence" of what I would feel like with the girl of my dreams. I would spend hours and hours in an alpha level. After this I would just "let go", I was happy, and dated freely. Not three months later, I met my "soulmate", and we have been married for 15 years now. She makes me feel as I had visualized. The key points were that I was happy, I knew that my goal would be achieved, and I let the universe take care of the request.

Thanks guys. Now i see that associating with people and having their advice for the problem is great assistance. Thats a support. Actually I see that in the very deep of my essence I understand that I lack self-confidence. This is a big problem I have. Sometimes I try to meditate and solve this problem by visualising it but then I just have such disbelief that I stop doing that. I know it is very stupid. But I will try hard to work it out.
What about those man I have imagined I just dont know...May thats really not good and I must do everything myself. only myself.

I've noticed this thread for quite a while, but have said nothing, because my advice would seem, on the surface, to say that the AFL material can't work for everything. I mean why can't you have the man of your dreams, be happy and rich. The answer is of course you can. However, as you may be realizing that your approach might have been too forced and not addressing your true desires.

When I once was setting goals for myself, I made statements that seem like they were exactly what I wanted. However, they were goals that I would not be proud to share and I felt came from my less mature self.

Some time later I realized that the problem with this particular goal is that it is contradiction to my other values. If I had actually tried to achieve this goal I would have stopped myself. I would have created barriers to my own success.

Ghandi once said, "Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony". I've thought about this quote many times. At first I thought it was missing something. Then I felt it was complete and correct. Now I would add that if your thoughts are not in harmony with eachother you can not have harmony with thought, word and action.

Dinara5.85 I think that your true goal is happiness, and you had an image of what would create that happiness. I think you are now discouvering those things that will create true happiness for you.

The Inquiry Process is a great tool for testing if you've arrived at a good solution for yourself.

You are perfection.
Iam2

When you look outside yourself for your comfort and security you give away your power.

Abundance is taking back that power and moving on from where.

Why should someone else provide your education? If you're married to a Billionare why would you even need an education?

To live a live of happiness is a choice. You can only know happiness when you learn to live in the momment and not put your happiness off to some future time.

As long as you hold on to the nettles of wanting it cannot show up.

Alex

Alex,
you mean that I should realize that I am happy now...and the marriage for a billioneer man will not solve all my problem? I dont know but I think this the easeast way to achieve my goals of becoming happy...
if you would ever know what look like that man...

Alex,
you mean I must realize that I am happy now
without meeting that man?
I dont know but my life is not so easy going I think this is the easest way to achieve my goals,.
I will meet him, become rich and I will study...You dont agree with it? ...
if you would ever look at that man whom I see myself...

As long as you beleive that only someone outside of yourself can make you happy you cannot experience happiness and are giving your power away.

The fact of the matter is everyone reading these forums can point to something that they think would make their life easier if they had that.

As long as you hold on to the belief that the life you are now experiencing is wrong you cannot change it and it will not chage because you are holding onto exactly that.

What if you knew that the skills you are now learning in th process of having to find a way of educating yourself will oneday save you life and bring you your greatest fortune An experience and skill that you would not gain by being somes barbie doll in return for an easy education. Wouldn't you be glad for the experience of gaining that skill?

There is nothing wrong with having to work toward your own education. It builds charactor (I bet that sounds like someones grandfather ) Only your thinking that the only way you can have an easy education is to marry a billionaire is faulty. If the education is important to you it doesn't matter if it's easy or hard. It sounds to me like an easy life is important in which case you need to be honest with yourself. You don't really want the education you want to have an easy life.

You're not going to get an easy education if you hold onto the idea that someone else has to provide it for you. Whether you like it or not you're playing the role of the victim when you do that and a victim has no power to control their life so a dream of having a Billionaire or knight in shining armour come to the rescue will remain a dream.

There are other options to gaining an education, Correspondence studies, E-learning, Scholarship, meeting the right mentor or guide learning it over 4 years instead of two. If it's an easy education you want then your focus needs to be. "What can i do to make it easier for me to study and look after myself at the same time?" The guy shows up that becomes your husband may not be a Billionare or humugously rich but may well be supporting enough to make studying a breeze for you.

When you get going and accept that it might not be easy and you just do the best you can and choose to be happy and take responsibility for your own education. Then your prince charming will probably show up.

I'm sorry if you or any one reading this post finds my tone a bit blunt. I've opted to leave it as is because my words may *not* reassure you that you will manifest your billionaire they offer you the truth to know by wanting someone to look after you and make your education easy for you. You are giving your power and happiness away to a future time that cannot manifest as long as you cannot accept and be happy with where you are now.

No doubt you heard the story of the Monk that fell over a ledge and was clinging on for dear life when he noticed a strawberry reached over to pick and eat it. Decided it was the most delicious strawberry he ever tasted. It's an analogy for accepting your fate and doing your best for enjoying what is.

Happiness is a choice. The only time you have is now. The past is a memory the future but a dream. The only time you can experience true happiness is in the now.

Alex

Dinara5.85

No one, except you, can make you happy.

You are perfection.
Iam2

quote:

---

Originally posted by Alex K. Viefhaus:
As long as you hold on to the wanting the universe cannot provide it.

Alex

---

Mabe "wanting" can be metamorphed into the first process of creating... if it can't, all these dragons aren't real...
and they do have the neatest faces and smiles... I'd miss them...

quote:

---

I didnt meet him so far....why?[/B]

---

Because you didn't do the necessary magic.

"Originally posted by babayada:
How about believing in yourself and building the life you want?'"

Is magic part of the equation?

"Relying on others for your happiness makes them resentful of you", unless they enjoy you relying on them for your happiness... which happens only when you deserve that pedestal... if you are driving you... Or, if you are an adept sorcerer... then you would not have needed to ask "why?"...
In imagining this perfect man, is the first step to creation... unless you have already developed abilities of creation...
You wouldn't be here if you had...
Maybe also ask "how?" given that you have the first step... Maybe the appropriate question is, "What be the second step?"

Magic is not part of any equation I present. My bias is to try and be realistic about things and expect results from practical action.

You're right, there are people who adore people who rely on them for happiness. Cult leaders, for instance.

Then, without magic, how can you have "Kundalini"? when Kundalini is the magic of Life...

Oops! a litle too much phunn there... sorry.

"You're right, there are people who adore people who rely on them for happiness. Cult leaders, for instance."

and Loving Husbands, Loving boyfriends, Loving parents, Loving friends, and potatoe-head cult leaders... etc..
and then there's the lady who relies on me for her daily laughs, and her happy...
I just Loves her free laughter all the way right from her Spirit... She laughs into my Soul...

Whether reliance is a good or bad thing depends of the kind and extent of reliance of one person on another.

If I understand you, you're saying that relationships contain elements of interdependence. I agree.

That's healthy.

Contrast this with a girl I know who had a sugar daddy. She was a complete emotional wreck, and her sugar daddy secretly resented her. Whether she was happy or miserable depended on whether or not she got a call from him during the day. If he called, she was full of glee, if not she was morose and unconsolable.

Sounded to me that Dinara was looking for a sugar daddy type scenario. Of course, I could be mistaken.

Some of what people call relationships are actually forms of mutual slavery. Personally, I want a mate who is self-sufficient, who can exist happily on her own as well as within a relationship.

"I can't live without you" is a nice, romantic sentiment, but it sucks as an opening line.

[This message has been edited by babayada (edited October 29, 2004).]

quote.. "If I understand you, you're saying that relationships contain elements of interdependence. I agree."

Focusing upon and in the soup of sour relationships, is sort of like stirring a plugged toilet... We can all agree that much of many relationships is no more more than just "sewage" at best...
Forget about all that crap. It is your religious conditioning directing you into a slush zone to prevent you from learning more than religion wants you to know... I have proof, but it be extremely "blasphemous"...
Is there a part of this forum that can handle anti-religious extremes?

Students need to take a break from the "toilet of relationships", and look in and up simultaneously at evolving the Being in the required Kundalini steps, while the student still has breath... Don't be wasting your precious time digging into, and denouncing petty evil, or it will be your anchor and your demise...
Oh sure we all know that evil exist, but that is not reason to bathe in it...

A better use of ones time and energies be to work on neutralizing ones own fears... Kundalini won't work properly if the student harbors fears... In the advanced levels of Kundalini practices, fears can manifest, and hurt the student badly... or even destroy the student...

Is there a thread in this forum dedicated to Neutralizing Fears? I would call that "lesson-two"...

Lesson-one in learning Kundalini would have to be a strong lesson in "dumping" old data without being an obnoxious bully... which is what I''ve found lurking in the many other forums I've played in...
Is there a thread in this forum dedicated to "Dumping"?

Lesson three would likely be in neutralizing ones science and religious conditioning... crucial to attaining the more... But again that is another extreme that would no doubt offend the student who harbors religious conditioning...
Is there a place in this forum that can handle the extreme techniques in neutralizing religious conditioning?

Please Advise...

Life,

Perhaps what you're looking for is your own website and forums in which you can present your beliefs and guide those who are willing to participate in them and any exercises you have to offer.

I am not the one looking for relationship advice here. I am happy. My relationships are fine. You are aware of the fact that I was never asking for relationship advice, aren't you?

[This message has been edited by babayada (edited October 29, 2004).]

quote:

---

"Originally posted by babayada:
Life, Perhaps what you're looking for is your own website and forums in which you can present your beliefs and guide those who are willing to participate in them and any exercises you have to offer.
I am not the one looking for relationship advice here. I am happy. My relationships are fine. You are aware of the fact that I was never asking for relationship advice, aren't you?"
[This message has been edited by babayada (edited October 29, 2004).]

---

I here you Mr. Bada... It is very good advice to move on away from where you are not wanted... Thank you for sharing your deep thoughts with me... Are you god?

quote: "You are aware of the fact that I was never asking for relationship advice, aren't you?"

I am aware of that ... and I was aware that you were giving very bad advice to someone desperately in need of good advice... You obviously gave Christian conditioning related advice to someone who was obviously asking for beyond-religion, realistic Kundalini-Magic Advice... Kundalini and Christanity don't and can't mix... The religous conditioning prevents the seeker from ever seeing beyond established religous dogma... and forces ones religious conditioning to detour the seeker from such trains of thought... something you seem to be trapped in...

So the message I'm getting from you, is to "Get the hell out of this forum!", Is that correct? Is that also the general consensus of this forum? Do you folks actually believe that I have nothing valid to say?
I can handle that, but can you?...
I have 70,000 condensed notes on Human Magic, and untapped future sciences... plus 1,184 full floppies... How many do you have?

I have taught critters to speak English...
I can light a fire, and bend a steel beam in half, both from thousands of miles away... Plus a hundred powerful active mental abilities that you've never even heard nor dreamed of...

Forum owner and leaders:
Please Advise... Do you want me out of your forum now and permanent?

I do not want you out of these forums, Life.

You're free to do whatever you Will.

What I read in your posts was a desire to promote your own views of what truth is and to have people follow certain exercises (on a forum) that you, presumably, would lead. I am sorry if I was mistaken about that. The best way to do that, if that is what you really want, is to start up your own website with your own forums. If you can do what you say you can, getting your own website up should be no problem.

As I see your abilities, however, you apparently have a high level of excellence in perceiving that which you want to perceive. Your problem probably has to do with choicefully joining and participating with others in consensus reality.

You have every right to express what you want. You have every right to think my advice is bad. You are not every person, however, and for another the advice might actually be good. To an extent, these things are not absolute and none of us has absolute knowledge or a copyright on the truth.

I don't see, however, how advising a person to become more self-reliant is bad (or Christian). I don't see how moving from a place of needy emotions to stability and self-confidence is bad. Did you see my advice as something different than that? Please share, because the meanings above are what I intended.

Let us say that people DO have the power to magically create whatever they want. The question is, is it GOOD for them to do so? Sometimes a person thinks what's best for them is to get something that will be an answer to their problem. But they have mistaken what the problem truly is. If you feel you are incomplete, then perhaps another person will fill you? Or another car? Or this, or that. Well, you might find that its a bottomless hole, that nothing truly satisfies. The truth of the matter is, probably, that the hole isn't bottomless or unfillable. It's just that you've been trying to feed the wrong appetite. You need to be able to make youself realize your completeness first inside and then when you go to the outside world to feed yourself you can do so with sobriety rather than desperation and addiction.

On another subject, why do you feel its necessary to call in an authority figure to make a decision? Don't you believe you're able to make your own decisions? Do What Thou Wilt, right?

[This message has been edited by babayada (edited October 30, 2004).]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by babayada:
[B]I do not want you out of these forums, Life. What I read in your posts was a desire to promote your own views of what truth is and to have people follow certain exercises (on a forum) that you, presumably, would lead."

You just described exactly what you are trying to do...

"I am sorry if I was mistaken about that. The best way to do that, if that is what you really want, is to start up your own website with your own forums. If you can do what you say you can, getting your own website up should be no problem."

Don't have a computer for that... Hackers destroyed the four I had... I am forced to trek through the mud and snow to use the neighbor's computer, when she isn't using it for her many projects... I get about an hour per day, when I'm lucky...

"As I see your abilities"

You don't. You can't.

"you apparently have a high level of excellence in perceiving that which you want to perceive. Your problem probably has to do with choicefully joining and participating with others in consensus reality."

"consensus reality." that being the fantasy fanatical way of existence our Species has chosen to wrap around themselves, in a group attempt to make sense of it all... I label it "Synthetic Reality", since it is based upon fantasy, money, and fear... and has no base to actual reality... therefore my views and practices would have to be viewed as do you...

"You have every right to express what you want. You have every right to think my advice is bad. You are not every person,"

Correct, I am not 6-billion people, but I do not have any ceilings anymore, as I have eliminated them, and I have explored the many "light showers"... which makes me able to see as no other can see... and I have an undeniable connection to all 6-billion...

"however, and for another the advice might actually be good. To an extent, these things are not absolute and none of us has absolute knowledge or a copyright on the truth."

Are you actually fully aware of that fact?
And why do you seem to fight against it so aggressively and hard?

"I don't see, however, how advising a person to become more self-reliant is bad (or Christian)."

Self reliance does not create, especially when the student is querying, in an advertised "Kundalini Forum", "Why didn't my attempts at magic-manifestation work?"
Redirecting a magic seeker into the "Sit back in peaces, and let the universe provide" thing, is like preaching to them to just roll over and die... is like instructing them to curl up in a corner of the crib, for an eternal nappy... is like giving up, and just waiting for mummy to bring the next full bottle, or tit...

"I don't see how moving from a place of needy emotions to stability and self-confidence is bad."

Not bad in proper context...
The emotions are what powers the magic... and your advice should thus be how to do the magic... not to just lay back and hope and/or pray for fantasy to effect change...

Did you see my advice as something different than that? Please share, because the meanings above are what I intended."

Then delete the erroneous post, and write it up properly... including All realms of life in the equation...
Without including all the facets of life, you are not fully addressing reality... but, in essence are just "poking holes in your and other's toes with a sword"...

"Let us say that people DO have the power to magically create whatever they want. The question is, is it GOOD for them to do so?"

Is it BAD?
Who are you to decide what is good or bad for anyone?
Have you ever created anything, besides words on paper?

"Sometimes a person thinks what's best for them is to get something that will be an answer to their problem. But they have mistaken what the problem truly is. If you feel you are incomplete, then perhaps another person will fill you? Or another car? Or this, or that. Well, you might find that its a bottomless hole, that nothing truly satisfies.

Maybe you see "problem" where the reality is simply someone inquiring about the next step in a viable process... Maybe the only problem is that you too do not understand their position, nor yours... and merely make a wild stab at it, believing your one and only stab to be "god's' word...
Maybe the wanting and needing is not a problem, and the student is just curious and seeking truth, for a personal greater goal, or just for curiosity...
One "ounce" of magic is just a tiny segment in a step for them, as dictated by their ancient Being, which has set them on that particular course... If you do not understand their question, then it be the wise man who maintain his silence in matters that he cannot fully fathom...
That is when you document your response, not post it in a rush, but file it, and ponder it over the days, and build it within yourself before playing teacher...

"The truth of the matter is, probably, that the hole isn't bottomless or unfillable."

You can not present a truth, with a "maybe", nor a "probably"... It is or it isn't. There is no 'hole", nor any "unfilled" anything"... That is just the chamismical crucial segment in religion's herd conditioning, designed to frighten the seeker from seeking more than religion can allow them to see, so to maintain total submissiveness and mass blindness, in herding and tithing...

'It's just that you've been trying to feed the wrong appetite."

In reality I don't want to feed you anything... I would prefer that you totally ignored my posts... because I would only find myself paying for all your new lessons to pull you out of fantasy, and into reality, your lessons payed-for by my own blood and pain... You come across as a mean bully... especially when you are proved wrong, and even when you are not...

"You need to be able to make youself realize your completeness first inside and then when you go to the outside world to feed yourself you can do so with sobriety rather than desperation and addiction."

Completeness is first recognized outward, then you resonate with it inside... to discover that there is no difference between out and in... That be when you have become one with the Universe and one with life, and one with me... A "triadish" kind of thing...
All that advice you thought you were giving me, was exclusively for you... You might check your other posts in that frame, and be deservingly embarrassed and ashamed...

"On another subject, why do you feel its necessary to call in an authority figure to make a decision? Don't you believe you're able to make your own decisions? Do What Thou Wilt, right?"

That be all your own illusion, not my reality...
All I attempted to do was eliminate a bully's blatant error, and then get the bully off my back...
Too often we see others as our mirrors, seeing ourselves as they would, and we spew anger for what we saw, and try to break the mirror for it showing us the truth... It's called "violent dumping"...
Look into the mirror... but you will quickly discover that attempts to break the mirror be futile, as you learn the hard way that some mirror possess powerful cosmic venom's and sword, and are quite capable of stinging an attacker-bully to dust upon approach...
Caution and respect and dignity and love are all prerequisite to maintain the stable reality that creates meaningful communication... any less is construed as "bully"... and shall be recycled in the usual ways... In that, I suspect that bully bloodlines are thus recycled...

Years ago, I met the Shaman of the central North American First Nations Tribes... He be the legendary fellow who walked from Alaska to Peru, and back, in 35 years... pausing two years in Portland to cool-down with a wild lady friend, before making his final stretch back home in Northern Ontario...

I presented him with a valuable gift, which would assist his entry into the first afterlife... and he shared a soul to soul with me... after which he said, "Now you are seeing and touching where I saw and touched, as I am seeing and touching where you have touched and been"... and stated that his meeting me was like his first drunk on firewater."... It was big for me too...
He was 108 years old then... In Fall of his 111th year I felt a hard tug at my chest, that nearly pulled me over, face-down to the floor... I immediately dove into trance, and discovered his animate remnants, in my living room, hovering 6-feet from me, 6- feet up... A quick scan indicated he was only lost and confused, and had come to me for assistance... me being his last resort... I gently firmly grabbed his mind/spirit/soul combo, and pushed him along a path I had found years previous, through layers, past the dangers, into a place where my pets would nurture and guide him in the ways of their realm... I released him in their care, and released the trance, had some sips of my still hot coffee, and went back to what I was doing before the intense interruption..
Half hour later he was back in my living-room, 6-feet up, 6-feet away... to share with me what he learned in that half hour... thereby confirming my path... My ear to ear smile lasted about an hour and a half, and hurt a lot for hours later...
Now it's my turn to give him a gift... I still don't know what... except maybe to permit him to share my vehicle, to again experience woman's embrace... as long as he refrain from touching the controls.

I have pushed, along that path, several good friends who have passed, who opted to make their presence with me for assistance in what they couldn't even begin to fathom..., moments after they jettisoned the vehicle...
None were as agile and honest as the First Nation's Shaman... The rest were gone like a shot!... Not even one considered a "thanks", so I am confident that I have, at least, one cosmic brother who will be my attendant when it's my turn...
This perpetually exchanging gifts process is number-one... It's the difference between life and death... The ancient peoples had a good idea in initiating this gifts giving thing... and probably knew it...

This is a tiny part of what I've been trying to share with this mindless Species for 30-years, but I run up against only mindless bullies, guarding all the doors, who can't fathom any new, and fight new as if they are battling "crazy"... , for they see everything beyond their infantile capability to process thought, as "crazy",... and are content to one day lay back on their deathbed, and wait for mommy to deliver the next full bottle, or tit... They die 100%...
There is another option... one that really works...
It's time to WAKE-UP! Human-Race...

[This message has been edited by Life (edited November 01, 2004).]

Life,

May you have peace.

[This message has been edited by babayada (edited October 31, 2004).]

quote:

---

Originally posted by Life:

I can light a fire, and bend a steel beam in half, both from thousands of miles away... Plus a hundred powerful active mental abilities that you've never even heard nor dreamed of...

---

Life,

Can you tell me how to bend metal with the mind? I've seen Uri Geller do it close up and it was definately authentic.

Thanks,

Mark.

[QUOTE]Originally posted by babayada:
Quote: "[B]Life, May you have peace."

You too dude...

[QUOTE]Mark-11:
"Can you tell me how to bend metal with the mind?"

Generally the novice needs a great reason, powered by extreme excesses of emotion...

You start with growing focused ultra deep trance... grown from the start with only your alternate goal in mind, that not being metal-bending... as if you are enveloped in conceiving a child, birthing a child, and growing a child simultaneously ("the power of the triad")... as can be viewed in a river's waves, birth, life, death, all in a second, in each wave's start to finish... Simultaneously pouring yourself into the metal, as the metal is becoming you, and you it... as the wave births, lives, and dies...
When you are one, bow to the Sun... and the metal bows with you... For this you need to be able to maintain six active thought progressions, then slowly sync them into one, without losing any one facet...
Simple multiple arithmetic progression practices teach you this element.

There are several ways to bend metal by thought...
Some schools teach to stroke the metal, to heat it up by your thoughts. I don't believe that one could work, as it is like the person needing to become a "cosmic torch" in essence...

The easiest one I know is to mutate clean anger into creativity... which is how I bent beams in a Russian lab, after the Russians flatly boycotted America's Peace Talks...
They complained in the world media that a "ghost was smashing and bending support structure in one of their peace time labs"... A subterranean nuke guidance systems lab. Suddenly they were begging to engage in peace-talks.

For me it happens easily... I never consider bending metal... I am busy with thought progressions that can result in metal bending... I.E.: It's like you are not interested in the stove, nor its heat, but only in the reactions to the gourmet meal you are creating... Eventually success, the food is ready to eat... The heat only becomes irritating and uncomfortable. It be the creating and eating that you focus upon...
In essence, the stove is the "metal and the bending"... creating the meal is your entire focus. The stove is of no concern...
Yikes! and Dam! It's difficult to document the insides of a useless paradox on paper...

In a sense you have become so relaxed, that matter around you relaxes too... The trick is to focus it at the prime moment it announces it is to birth... That requires an inner completeness, and total lack of fear, and a deep reach into the cosmos...

You want to bend metal, then start by working on neutralizing all your fears...
because in these layers of thought, your fears can fully all sense manifest, and hurt you real bad. You must be fearless when playing with open mind. You must not fear death, or death will present itself.

That's "off the cuff', some distorted and fragmented, as I was struggling for correct words, and avoiding the words I use that we don't yet have in our dictionaries... Is why I am writing a dictionary with this encyclopedia...
I'll try through the night to make it more scientific... It's best if I do it, then fresh document the facets of it...

A good practice for you right now, is to work on modifying anger into creativity...

The hardest part of this exercise is for a relaxed loving person to suddenly force anger... Don't be trying to hurt yourself just to make yourself angry, it can't work... I recall an incident in which secret service apes kicked my tailbone after i was evicted out of a government building after a politician refused me claim tags for radioactive mineral deposits. I imagine attacking that bastard for kicking my tailbone, and recall how it shot extreme pain up and down my spine, and made my ears feel like they were on fire. Eventually anger bubbles up, and I use it for creativity. I bet by now that feller is wondering why he's experiencing so many extreme nightmares... and who knows, maybe he even gets tossed out of bed, and flung across the room..

Maybe just look at how the election campaigns are going, and try to take right into yourself... I do, but I just don't give a darn.. It does nothing for me... I've just got too much seritonin flowing... so when I do experience anger, I can't wait to experiment with that precious rare commodity... With it you can even calm a square mile of turbulent ocean shoreline...

I need your questions to set my mind set on a path... Ask me definite segments of your metal bending project, in your own clearest terms, so I know where you are, so to determine where to address you from...

Oops! my neighbor is yelling from the kitchen, "I want the computer Now!" I'm outa here.

[This message has been edited by Life (edited November 03, 2004).]