Well since I last posted I had established the stuck state I would use for my initial learning of the Natural Brilliance model. I created my own worksheet for Release in excel so that I would be able to store it and future endevours in my computer.
Release was an awesome experience for me. I listened to side A, activated the work book and the book seeking to answer the questions--what am I releasing, how do I release and what benefit will releasing offer me. After making three activation passes using super-read and dip I felt comfortable with my answers. I am releasing negative tension caused from osicillations, I release by knowing what the difference between pain and tension is and then allowing it to flow outwardly from me as I gently reduce stress with body/mind exercise(s) and it will benefit me by allowing me to become aware and playful with theme that is in a stuck state.
In the early evening around 5pm, (if you read some of my earlier posts you will know I am on vacation and dedicating myself to this course), I listened to the paraliminal side B. After removing the headset and setting my walkman aside I decided to take a nap. I awoke at 11:30pm feeling very, very rested, alert and relaxed. Though I felt very comfortable, long naps like this usually cause me to have a sleepless night and stimulates a small amount of hypomanic activity.
Since my mind was active and I did not want watch tv I worked on another project until 6am when i ate. After about 30min I decided to begin the 3rd tape notice. I listened to side A, then did the exercise for side B. Soon afterward I listened to side B. After that I drove around for awhile and a funny thought kept coming into my mind, "why am I smoking if I already quit?" This thought keeps jumping into my mind now and then since listening to Notice side B. I have smoked since then but much less than normal. Maybe something better is ahead.
I have just completed side A of respond and completed the exercise for it. I will now go and listen to side B. Oh yeah, I have only drank one diet soda all day. I have been drinking water all day and I bought a 24 pack of water when I went grossing shopping. I kinda laughed when I opened the fridge cause I was expecting to see a shelf full of diet cola and there was only two rows of six and ten rows of water. I am still amazed at this because it was so simple and without any real effort. During the exercise on the paraliminal for notice I choose a bottle of water as my new symbol too!!!
Well as I promised I am keeping you all informed. If you have any comments, suggestions or quesions jump on in. I know this seems like a journal entry and it may very well be, yet it is also a public proclamation as well which my hope will solidify the Natural Brilliance model within my other than conscious and conscious mind while holding me accountable.
thanks again, a friend
iamog