There is a difference between a cry for help and whinning, loverofcats1948.
You were saying that you couldn't see any options and even pointed out that you were probably erring on wrong thinking. Ending with a request for suggestions.
Without knowing where you are coming from it's wouldn't be possible to suggest something you could try that you could do and yes it may sound whinny to give us some idea of where you're coming from.
The hardest thing to learn is that the only moment in our life that really counts is the now moment. If we make the mistake of projecting our thoughts constantly into the past wishing it was different we are only bringing our past feelings of disappointment into the present moment. If we project into the future missery believe it holds for use, we bring that into our present moment. We call for happiness in the future but are miserable that we don't have it now, so we cannot take action to move towards a brighter future. But it's Right NOW that you need to make the decision of how you want to feel most of the time. It's Right NOW that you decide you're going to take action that will bring rewards.
Each time you find yourself a little sad or in a different time zone. Take a moment to do the feeling exercise... it isn't just about owning the feeling there is something much more to it than that.
Often when we start something new it takes a while to get rolling. We need to remember that life is a bit like a dance we do from time to time move backwards to turn and move with the flow of the music of life. Resisting that backward step throws us out of the tempo.
So loverofcats1948 keep posting, get feed back, and if you do become too whinny we'll tell you, simply because we care enough to let you know what doesn't serve you in building a brighter future. The forum is here for the purpose of helping you to grow with the Abundance for Life course.