Re: Falling Asleep - Try listening to the paraliminals from a comfortable sitting position - with your back straight and your lower back supported - not leaning into a lounger, or in a crosslegged position.
Re: Focusing on your Choices. Bobbie Stephens suggests focusing on one of your choices after your morning meditation time, and also at the end of the day - take one of your choices into mind and then ask a question regarding what you need to do next to achieve it.
Re: Your Feelings Issue. This can be a hindrance or it can be blessing in disguise. A handicap can often give us a much stronger focus on achievement and keep us from taking anything for granted. Rise to the challenge. You can do anything that you set your mind to and continue with persistence.
You will do just fine if you keep at it. You might find Bobbie Stephens book, Unlimited Futures, a good addition to the materials you already have.