Mark, are you saying you are a Master? Or, are you saying that you want to become aware of your true self before you do anything else?
Young people who get overwhelmingly interested in spiritual philosophy are often (note i said often & not always) running away from taking on the responsibilities of growing up.
Making and leaving this world a better place to live in requires working in and w/ the world, not running away from it.
When we do our duty, unknown friends will automatically show up to help us. When we do our duty, all we need to do is ask for help & help arrives w/o us needing to seek it.
The Sufi saying comes to mind: Don't pray for miracles, rather, pray for the strength to live your life and then you will become the miracle. (it's something like that)
Tackle your stuff; ask for help from unexpected sources; expect the help to come; get out of the way and let it come