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I was reading for test for like 4mths and toook break for month and now i cannot get back ,to study my mind is all over the moment i study i want to get to other things ,i am getting into the habit of porn which am feeling gilty about feels bad after all the let out .my result is going to come soon making me anxious and sick .
i want o take control of my emotions i want to stop this its like a rollercoster, going to temple helps for awhile but by wed or thrur same cycle starts i am wasting my time in this stupid cycle .if i fail i will have to retake it like in 2 mths and i want to be in touch again and see that iam ready agian
sorry for being open but i need answers

This isn't really a PhotoReading question.

If you've failed and you want to or need to pass that test you will have to take it again. There would be no ifs or buts about it right?

Till you know the answer you are going to be worried, part of what you are doing looks like self punishment, like you feel guilty because you might have failed. You're trying to transfer that guilt to other things. And at the same time release the stress.

When you are ready to face the fact, pass or fail, the past is the past and it's what you do now that sets the path for your future success. You will be able to get back into a better routine.

Right you are that this can become a bad habit that stays with you. Look at your motive for doing it. When you understand that
you know why you're doing it you have a choice. When you know you have a choice you can decide.

Alex

alex thanks,
I am out of my rhythm for a month like a very specific routine.i am not able to sleep good ,and i used to work out an hr not doing that ,and have this energy that is just stagnating ,it wants to get out and i thinks it has to get out in a good way.
about self punishment, it is hurting me ,i need to decide and stop it, for a moment it feeels good but later it gives sick feeling ,just like smoking for me in past.
i need to slowly get my self of this i need make aschedule when i get up what i do and why,i need document my time,i need to pray daily,i need get back my balance,a sense of well being,i am going to work hard to not let thing of lower nature take control over me,i want to be good ,optimistic ,energized ,up,confident,some how i think i am caught up in this negative loop and it is going down and down , i want to empower my life for better purpose .this bloody script Iam living is taking me to darkness ,i swear to god I will have to break this cold turkey
/what am i doing and why

You need some solidity in your life. Maybe find a friend or to that will listen to you. Don't think of yourself as a victim, think of yourself as an operator. You control your life, you make the decisions yourself, and you can control your ways of thinking. Begin to see yourself as a better person. Guilt and shame are traps, and the only way out is thinking positively. Rather than constantly telling yourself the bad things about you, tell yourself the good things about you. Make changes on the inside first. You can build self esteem by the same means you take it away, by habitual thinking. This is why positive thinking is a must.