Someone emailed me and asked me about insights I got about the Natural Brilliance model.
Well as we all know it's easy to hear good advise but another to put it to work. Especially if nothing challenges us when we are just sitting around talking. That's where the MotivAiders came in as well as the out door challenges.
Paul had us focus on Releasing on our first day. Our Personal MotivAiders went of at various times that we set. Feng Shui wise they placed the challenge in a spot that did not welcome success. All the more to challenge us. I noticed in one of the challenges I was not sure I could hold the postion for the count when I remembered to release. Funny how releasing even tension in the muscle can give you an extra boost. Most of us had to release on the fact that what we were trying just didn't work and we kept falling over each other. So we some of us laughed others struggled in earnest to solve the challenge.
The next day we worked on Releasing and then noticing. This resulted in changing our approach. We noticed that those who normally were more vocal observed more and took a back seat letting others run the show and those that tended to be more quiet offered more of their insights. Releasing and noticing already changed allowed us to move beyond personal stop signs.
On the third day with our biggest and most personal challenge we were working on doing Release, Notice, Respond of the Natural Brilliance steps. Paul asked us to consider the challenge as a metaphor for the personal life area we were working on. Since I wasn't part of a team Paul coached me. Asked me what area of my life I was working on today, [spiritual Growth] in what way? [I want to be more in the flow]. He said, When you are up there think about how you can be more in the flow and take the next step.
I spent the next 2 and half hours running around taking photos of my group in action. As the group was getting closer to the last person I was getting some fantastic photos of them going through, release, notice, respond and I was going through the process with them. One photo when I saw what I captured in the screen made me think, 'am I mad? Taking photos like this when I'm supposed to go up there? I released, noticed the desire to run away and came back into the flow. I still had pictures to take. The photo in question got a laugh during the slide show on the last day... in fact so did the photo that Paul took of me when I had my turn on the challenge. I had put the cameras down to be wired up for sound by Paul. He said which one should I use. I recommended the one with the telephoto lens.
As I mentioned in the last post I was already worn out from taking photos so getting ready was my first opportunity to release, notice, respond (go with the flow as best I can.) Since I am terrified of heights I promptly screwed my eyes shut and they offered blindfolds to the people who had done that or something similar before and wanted a bit more of a challenge. Paul got a photo of that. Afterwards some of the team members said they NOTICED how much more Paul was running around while I was up there. Because I was too busy looking skyward I never took a photo of Paul lying back on the ground coaching everyone as they were making their assent.
Using Release, Notice and Respond (going into the flow) I reached my personal goal. I had didn't go far beyond that because I was also physically exhausted. I carried the tension of the exercise with me to bed that night.
The following morning during the meditation Paul started introducing witness. Then I connected why I've always had this unnerving physical reaction whenever I looked down from a high vantage point. It always felt as if I fell. When I returned home to Sydney I was moved to tears because for the first time in all the landings of my travels I was able to watch the landing without being nauseated by the physical reaction.
We all had personal experiences. Many of us wanted to be here more rather than fixing things, to enjoy the moment to the fullest. Others learned it was Okay to ask for help. The last days challenge was interesting it really irked those who wanted to learn to ask for help.
As I said we were still buzzing from the Respond challenge the next day.
Alex
[This message has been edited by Alex K. Viefhaus (edited July 03, 2005).]