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Hello All,I have just registered to be on this forum because I know that the group support and energy is invaluable to someone like me..I recently began Level One SFQ and am trying my best to build a solid foundation.. I hope to be able to use what I learn to help others after I have first been able to help myself..I realize that I am probably very much the minority here since my serious health problem is both physical and mental..I am a heroin addict,desperately trying to stop this horrible habit..There are more people from all walks of life addicted to heroin than I ever dreamed..We are not all homesless,indigent,and uneducated.But,what I do feel we are is -spiritually,emotionally,and physically sick...I never thought I would end up as I am ,and although I feel very embarrassed and "less than" because of my addiction,I still forced myself to write and tell you who I am..Please do not think of me as garbage..I have been called that ,and worse,more times than you know..I got involved with this drug after making an extremely poor choice as to how I was going to get rid of the severe pain I carried with me for years as a result of being sexually abused as a child..The physical abuse I got used to,but the introduction to sex at 8 years old left me with such feelings of shame and self-hatred that I would hide myself when I was a young girl,when all of the other girls my age were out playing with barbie dolls and hopscotch...That is all I have to say for now..All I ask for is your compassion,understanding and support..Even if you think of me as a nobody who doesn`t belong..I am willing to tell you about me and take that chance..I truly believe that SFQ will be very helpful with any addiction..I will suffer alot of pain before I can heal,but I am focusing on what my life will be like after practicing SFQ..Then I can know what it`s like to live and help others to do the same..Thank you...S

Hello and Welcome:

There are many here who have battled different problems, and some perhaps even heroin, although I cannot say that for certain. What I can say is that we are an accepting bunch, knowing that for each person that finds their light, the whole world then shines a bit brighter. Therefore, we each take a bit of responsibility to help everyone else that we feel able to - whether it's a kind word, a helpful instruction, or sometimes a new perspective on how to do things.

I have a friend on another forum who has been clean for 20 years now. She is a wonderful person who came through her own personal heroin hell and won - and therefore I know that you can do that too.

You have taken a good first step for yourself, in starting to learn SFQ, and as you go through the process, please know that there are many here who are willing and able to help you - and beyond that the support people at LSC are wonderful. Never feel embarrassed to ask for our help. Your heart and mind are definitely focused on your goal, and that is wonderful. You are a unique person with unique talents, and goodness only knows how many others you will be able to help as you work toward your own perfect healing.

Blessings to you,
Unis

Hi Scorpionsbabe
Welcome to SFQ and, the three most important qualities that Master Lin talks about in SFQ, being love, kindness and forgiveness, all of which you will get in abundance through your practice and sharing information and knowledge with the wonderful people on this forum. I should also say that these three qualities are something that you can and should also start giving to you yourself in abundance.

I feel very sad for the little girl in you that is still feeling such pain and suffering from the abuse she suffered at such a young age. She needs to be released so please surrender your shame and self-hatred to the Universe - use the self-concentration meditation on CD6 - track 2 and turn all of the negative feelings in your body (name them specifically) into smoke and send them back to the universe. You weren't responsible and you can't change the fact that it happened to you. Be kind to yourself, love who you are, nurture and respect your very valuable body, and forgive the people that were responsible for your ongoing pain ( this part won't be easy - and I'm speaking from personal experience, but it is necessary).

I've heard a saying and I can't remember it exactly, but effectively it meant that we make a poison for our enemies and then we drink it ourselves- in other words they are free and we suffer the pain we intended for them. Let it be.

You can heal yourself and SFQ is the perfect tool - I look forward to watching your journey.
Love
Jetay

Hi scorpionsbabe
I just wanted to tell you welcome to the forum and to Spring Forest Qigong. You have already proved yourself to be courageous by sharing yourself. Just know that you are Magnificant and are on a healing journey with the rest of us.

This is a compassionate corner of the web. Those that come here are trying to follow the stepping stones laid by Master Lin. Those of Love, Kindness and Forgiveness.

So to start, please feel assured that we do truly love you.

I'm not sure about the others, but I know that I don't always make the best choices. We each make choices and then it is past. What is important is Now, not the past. What choice are we going to make right now.

I know I need to show myself more kindness and love myself more, and especially forgive myself. What is done is done. My power is in my ability to form this moment. Will I use it well, or continue with habits that don't support me. Well, maybe I should just travel the path of good and better on the way to best.

I shouldn't judge myself if I find that right now I'm not best. It's just where I am. I believe that the path I'm travelling is for a purpose; even if I don't know what the purpose is I trust that it is for the best. Any judgement and lack of self-forgiveness moves me from where I am to a new place that is not better.

The problem is that every new Now offers to opportunity to travel a path that is not better. The great thing is that right after this moment passes we get another one, during which we can move along a better path, with the experience we gained along the other path.

As you open up to loving yourself and others, to forgiving yourself and others, you open yourself to an incredible power to be kind to yourself and others.

I picked love and forgiveness as the starting point, but kindness can be the starting point. They all open onto eachother.

I feel like I've started to ramble, but Scorpionsbabe I believe that you and your world can change in an instant. I warn myself and others, that looking for proof that it has happened restrict it from being. Live the life, don't waste your opportunity by spending your life looking for proof that is has changed. (Okay, now I know I'm going to far).

Scorpionsbabe, you are perfection.
Iam2

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Welcome Scorpionsbabe,

You have made the first step and believe me you will find support and love on this forum.
As a second step why not add your name to the weekly group healing session which you will find on this site.
We all have our problems and sometimes they seem so terrible and unsurmountable that you feel you can't do much - but that is only a perception.

You have come to SFQ for a reason and I am sure you will find your solution in its practice.
Very best wishes,
Love and light
Faune

Hello All,First,may I say thank you to UNIS,JETAY,CLAIRE,IAM2,FAUNE...Your replies are so very much appreciated,you just don`t know...
As I sit here writing with silent and unseen tears rolling down my face-I realize how truly compassionate and caring people you all are!! I am honored to be a part of such a group that feels love for others in thier hearts..I can feel your strength and kindness as it flows through each ones` written word..Again,I thank you...S

Scorpionsbabe, no one is better than you, and you are better than no one. You have come here and are looking to take steps down a healing path - we are all the same in that.

My hair stood on end when I read your post, and I so admire your honesty and bravery.

Everyone will help you here, and in your immediate life. All you need is to open to the energy of the Universe and start to love, forgive and trust.

The path might be difficult - you might feel like you're taking one step forward and two back at times - but just keep going and you'll get there. Starting on this is a major step in the right direction.

Much love and light
Fruitbat

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FRUITBAT-I thank you for your reply...Just knowing that there are people who can be caring and non-judgemental means alot to me...S