Hi Bro,
your gratitude is blessing enough ;-)
i'm just another Traveller on spaceship Earth attempting to remember the keys to the Kingdom are in his back pocket when he swears blind he doesn't have them ;-)
Humility is endless here, mate. One thing I got from ACIM is the true understanding of humility. Humility is recognising our limitless power by recognising the perfection of our brothers. If we see ourselves as limited in any way, helpless, threatened, under attack or guilty, if we are falsely humble and belittle ourselves, we're following the ego's thought system. In God's eyes we've always been perfect, powerful without end, and always will be - time being an illusion of course.
Oh, and don't worry if you can never tell another person about this thing you've got a hold of. It matters not. All you need to do is forgive yourself knowing that there is nothing to forgive! In Gods/divinity's/The Self's eyes you never did anything anyway.
the idea we can harm another or attack anyone or anything is an idea, nothing more. The idea stems from the belief in separate 'things' bumping blindly about with thier own agenda. If all the sages and Masters are correct and there is only 'I' or Oneness then how can any 'thing' attack any 'thing' else?
blame, judgement and attack/defence become a nonsense when the one recognises there is nothing outside of Us. These concepts depend on a supposed perpetrator and victim, neither of which exist in a separate sense.
the trick or the 'work' we have to do is to let go of these limiting thoughts and patterns and see through them. They have no reality if we choose to let them go.
According to the course there is only one problem(the idea of separation) and one solution(giving it up to the holy spirit/higher Self and seeing Union). We come up with all sort of different forms of 'problems', some of which we can let go of easily, some we hold onto like a dog with a mouldy old bone. In truth none are more or less real or important than any other.
Makes life easy, eh?