Sorry to take up so much time on this forum, and I greatly appreciate having the opportunity to receive guidance this way. I hope that something in these posts is helpful to others studying this material.
I was able to shift medit. 1 through guidance from another teacher. I am now on medit #2. I know this may seem a strange question, but how do I know if I am actually achieving focused consciousness on awareness?
I dont feel this is a case of overthinking or wanting to "get it right" in the manic sort of form, but more that I am experiencing a couple of different states while int he meditation, and I am not getting a clear sense of achieving the desired state. From this perspective, I do not want to be "exercising the wrong muscles", i.e. developing a practice that is not in alignment with awareness.
In the meditation, I experience a couple of different states:
one is an experience of extreme spaciousness, with only my sense of self, what I would have described in the past as my awareness, I guess this is my consciousness? As if I am floating in a void, with no sense of my outside world, body, etc.
The other state is more of a sense of being suspended in a column of energy down the center or my body, where there is more awareness of being embodied and sort of a focused mental concentration, yet pretty clear of distracting thoughts, and a clear energetic sensation of my energy body being pulled in one direction or the other, right or left of me, in response to thoughts of the past (left) or future (right).
Can you provide guidance on these states and in which direction I should move?
Last edited by WaterBird; 08/05/10 05:00 PM.