In order for us to move to where we want to be we need to 'believe' that we are so. If you are feeling resistance dont put yourself through the unnecessary pain. Thats not what paraliminals are about.
Are you setting an intention, & think about whether the intention you are setting is right for you?
Maybe have a think about changing the wording of the intention so it feels better. From what you are saying, maybe its too big a jump, which could be causing resistance.
You could try the Belief paraliminal, then move onto the Self Esteem Supercharger (SES), or if you have time do the Belief para then after 20 mins do the SES & see if you feel different.
Build up to the SES & see how you go.
Would love to know how you get on.
All the best 💜