haha
i like that
sometimes it hurts but u keep going back for more
some would call it sadist
some would call it tough
some would call it interested

im the kind of person who doesn't change his way depending on mood
they do not control me as i do not control them
only influence them into redundancy
same with my thoughts

so i take conversation simply as that
some take it as an extention of their emotions (not saying anyone here does that that i know of yet)
we may see i like to dig deep at times
ima gemini aswell
i cannot do without conversation and relationship
i can but its just me

i enjoy all thigs good and bad
i just enjoy learning how to cope with things in a good way so i do not only act good when i let my good emotions allow it and my bad side to show just because im in a bad mood

people ask me how i am
i say "good as always"
but my mood varies
that is mood
something seen as one with the mind
the mind holds many things
consciousness uses the mind as the mind uses the body
mind also ego also uses emotions which uses the mind
thoughts are a function of the mind

talk about rant hahaha
i never seem to have a point
something unconscious perhaps?
being brought into the concious but remaining unconscious?

im writing a lot of thoughts and scheisse into a book and a lot comes out and some of seems to be so irrelevant but i know somehow it all is

least u get to know me like this haha
im enjoying this too
i hope we all can
yahooooooooooooooooooooooooo