Carol,
The 1984 movie "Amadeus" comes to mind....
do you remember Antonio Salieri ??
Seriously, I have recently come accross a great book that fills in the blanks that may be missing after completing the AFL course. This might shine some light on where your are possibly going wrong.
The book is The 11th Element by Bob Scheinfeld.
This book explains clearly why some things don't manifest and has really helped me with understanding the AFL course.
I'm not saying one is better than the other but I like to have more than one source - that way you get the common ingredients which are more likely to be true.
Maybe your experience is teaching you a lesson. Or maybe you are just Salieri 
ONLY KIDDING !
Mark.
