do look into the self
i did and a i realised that self was an illusion but the forces apon it were not as bad as i had made out
i know things feel bad but they are not
the only escape from our suffering is not one of escaping but of realising and watching it
but without concepts or objects or thinking or judging
but all these things are usefull but the silence must be there to fall back on
we live in a mode of thinking and thinkinbg we are the thing that thinks
i says "i feel cold"
"i feel happy"
"i feel angry"
"you make me angry"
"i am here or there"
"i want to kill myself"

like it is an external thing
we already percieve ourselves as seperate why not seperateness within ourselves

that is the source of our pain
not being who we are
i think freedom of choice and expression education and religion are the biggest challenges today but some of the most important

we can see it in the fear and doubt

Dinara5.85 i hope you are feeling better
while in this mess why can we not all find some peace
it is there inside
not somewhere else
well its everywhere
some would say somewhere else also but only if you do not see that all is one

infinity within one

its so simple
we are all responsible for ourselves
i do not hope i know you will go ok
work is a chore
better than a bore if you ask me haha