phOTOreader;
Please note I am not disagreeing with you but when things aren't working, in my opinion, you have to stand up and tell the Universe you aren't going to accept this bag of trash you have been handed.
My line is something like " I don't want much, I just want it perfect" with a few sailor dialect additives thrown in there.If you don't do this then you never know if you'll get it.
The Hawaiians do a chant I like as an example. They stand up with hands on hips and call to the Gods, alot of intimidating body language goes with it. Alot of strong chanting that can give you chicken skin.
The Gods are expected to listen, it's your turn. And when you get what you want, be sure to thank the Universe.
It sounds as if you have nothing to lose by demanding what you want from life.
Jeff
