You are not alone in assuming that engagement is an expression of commitment, and that the conditions change when a relationship moves from dating to engagement. The problem often is, and that happens a lot, that each partner assumes something different.
Please do try to take care of yourself, Kaiden. Love and accept yourself, that helps with loving and accepting others.
Sorry I can't offer you anything other than cyber friendship.
Gook luck with moving. Big hug and lots of love, Hel 
[This message has been edited by Hel (edited May 19, 2002).]
