Pft. Iam2, the only thing wrong with your thoughts are that their exactly the same as mine.
I've been through worse situations than this and I realize the good that can come from anything. My only prob is having to wait for what exactly that good is. I thought by coming here I might get a jump start as to figuring out what could come of this. Plus, it's always nice to how others would deal with my situation.
**By the way, there's one thing that I didn't mention to you Ascending that I probably should have, and that's that I've also recently been practicing my active exercises inside instead of outside due to the weather. Today I practiced outside again and ended up feeling much MUCH better. As soon as I can get some incense I'm going to try AgentB's method of ridding negative energy and see if that has any effects.
