Dear Kevin,
I think there are many who empathize with what you're going through. There was a time in my life where I was suffering the same things. What helped me most was to simply accept my current situation for what it was, and to trust my inner voice to make me aware of those things I needed to do. That is, I should live my life to the fullest every day according to the best of my ability. There are many things in life I have control over, and those are the things which I actively work on. There are many things in life I have no control over, and those are the things I release to the universe to handle. Living in such a way has made all the difference in the world to me. I trusted that as long as I lived each day the best I could, everything would fall in place in its time. It then did not matter whether I had this or that in my life ... my life became as full as it could be every moment. Sure, I have dreams and hopes and goals, and I work very hard to try to achieve them. But my happiness does not depend on whether I'll ever attain them, because I recognize that if I'm not happy right now in my "now," I'll never be happy in my "then." It is only the now that determines one's true state, and it is in the now that one can find bliss.
I hope that helped a little, and I wish you the best,
HF
