The belief ... I am a beautiful person with nothing to prove is a nice belief to adopt. I also believe there are good memories connected to that. The time a stranger asked if you're ok. Or when someone says are you being served? or even the remark.. thank you you've made my day

I wouldn't add the without having... the mind doesn't understand without so it has to look for the with having to probe.

As Paul likes to say... go easy on yourself.

Alex