Aja- thanks goodnesS you are now realizing the self-talk that has been buried. I agree this is a good thing! It doesn't have to stay so far below the conscious mind now and it is free to express. Remember, when those thoughts drift up, now you are not ignoring them and shoving them back down. Now you can gently and lovingly change your thoughts. "The world is a better place for my being born. I am loved greater then I realize" Before you couldn't choose because you were not aware of them. I sometimes have to do this many times during the day but I give thanks that now I have realization they are there and can change the outcome. Good evidence of growth. I have found it does get better when I get the crap out--but first I have to see it!
