Dude you need to chill out a bit. Go for a surf or something!!!
Ask your self some what if statements!!!
What is there to fear in the world!!!
Death... so, pain... suffering.
Then put in perspective your fear. If you can handle the above (if you are ever in the situation you would have to handle it) then you have nothing to worry about.
Although you call it procrastination I believe you hide behind the fact that you are procrastinating, because that feels safer to you. Nelson Mandela put it well when he wrote about people being more afraid of success than failure.
My suggestion is to set yourself free. Realise you are 100% NOW and all change is good, that is if you perceive/make it good for yourself.
To be free stop wanting two diametrically opposed things at once.
Close your eyes...meditate (your own type of mediation) and feel!!! Just feel. That’s living, and when you live you feel the beauty and there is no need to fear because the love is too strong.
