Hello-
Thank you for the special greeting. Tashi Deley.
Just do the practice as directly and simply as you can, without self judging where you are at, in terms of ability. As you stand in your active exericise, or sit in meditation, you simply are where you've come to be, and in your qigong practice, you are in a transformational and healing alignment. It works for you on many levels,in many ways, some preceived, some not. Any sense you have of inabilities should be let go of. Your practice is just as vital and complete to you now, as it will be at some point down the road. If you can enter your practice, fully give yourself to it, allowing it to be what it is at any given time, you are doing qigong, you are healing and transforming. Whether or not you have specific abilities to visualize or not, isn't part of that pure experience of qigong. Stay centered in the spirit of the practice, not the academics.
Qigong is a physically and spiritually enlightening practice. As with enlightenment, it is in the moment, not down the road or in the future. There is a non skill to acquire in that. You can fully benefit from your practice now, at whatever level you are at. Nothing is missing. You are at a new beginning, and there will be many more new beginnings. Enjoy fully wherever you are at, and be nonreactive to self, in regards to how you perceive you are doing the movements. They will improve, and they are fine now, wherever you are at. How you simply stand in the beginning, is just as vital as when you begin to move.
If you are doing an exercise that seems more complex, and has you stopping or adjusting or trying to learn the movement, that's fine. Just do that practice without self critique or shifting to thinking about it. Just relax, focus, practice, accept, enjoy.
love,
gallen