Hi Alex. According to the Hicks' it's the emotion behind the thought, not the thought itself, per se, that drives the manifestation, if I've interpreted the material correctly.

I like the dog story. Did you say that you didn't get the same dog back?

Hi Kalohe, no I do want what I want, it's just that I can't figure out a way to get it. It seems so elusive that I've accepted a life without it for so long, and trying to change sends me into a spin.

I think it's more complicated than you're making out.