Hello French Claire, I hope you do not mind my candor here. I do want to help but I disagree with you. People who contradict themselves also second-guess themselves. Of course, there is nothing wrong with altering direction midway, if your goals are not really the goals you want. But if you need to change direction midway then frankly you have not been through enough at the all-important goal-setting stage. The question is, what do you want? The real question is WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?
It seems to me that you are expending far too much of your energy on how, where and why, and trying to find explanations for why it should be, rather than just going for your goal. Surely, when we try to analyse our goals like this, we sap energy from their manifestation.
In religion, a real believer never questions and never analyses. He or she just knows. You say you have faith, but real faith needs no questioning and no fake mathematical formulae.
