No matter all else, it comes down to this.

What you think, feel, imagine and speak forth.
What you do or experience is but reflection of what you have by long habit, thought, felt, imagined and spoke.

Get a friend to follow you around and record your every spoken word, inside one week you will better understand the why and the how of all that you now are, so appearing so being.

What you imagine is actually reality and truth. What you think is chosen and what you feel wraps around you like a whirlwind. And lastly well, all you say is the box that binds you a mortal doomed to die again and again and again...

...until you tire of it and change what you say, think, feel and most of all imagine.