Hi again Waterbird,
I am with you all the way on the "meaningless" dilemma. I have decided there is no such thing as being without an ego. We HAVE to have one while on Earth, just like we need a body. And we need meaning to have a reason to stick around.
How we define our ego and meaning is totally up to us. For me, that is the responsibility of being free. I have found it disasterous to ponder meaninglessness and no ego. I have let go of a lot of beliefs, but I need to stay grounded in something earthly... at least for now.
