I've searched. I've tried. I've invested. I've given. I've studied. I've spent countless hours, time, effort, and money. I've delayed gratification until it hurts, and at age 43 I find myself still waiting for life to begin, because it never has.
Life knocks you down so many times that it becomes harder and harder and harder to get back up just one more time, and that's where I find myself. I'm so tired of the battle, of self-improvement that leaves me high and dry, of promises unfulfilled, that I find myself reaching out for one last strand of hope. It's like I'm crawling in a street of mud and looking up, there is only rain. There is no more will, because there is no more hope.
My life has been a continuous struggle, and I'm trying to find the will for just one more battle. I really need a turnaround soon. Is there any hope left for a battle weary sojourner?? Are there any real answers???
[This message has been edited by Texas Bob (edited March 12, 2005).]
