Since you are on the SFQ forum, I assume you have considered approaching Master Lin for healing help. I would recommend it.
From your post I feel that you should consider the 3 stepping stones of Love, Kindness and Forgiveness and how you can apply them in your life. The more love you give, the more love you flows in you, and love is the best healing energy. To that end I would suggest the Inner Beauty meditation from the level 1 course.
You are perfection,
Iam2
