Have you considered looking for a job you might enjoy rather than a job that is advertised to get you money quickly?
What do you like to do? What are you good at? What would you enjoy doing? Could it be possible for you to do a job that doesn't pay a lot, but pays enough to keep you comfortable and paying the bills on time and at the same time makes you happy?
Dude, to be honest, it sounds like you have been trying to find the easy way out with various things, and you've been screwing yourself as a result.
I don't know what you need to help you. My guess is some cold water and a wake up call.
LISTEN to Alex for God's sake. Go through the course sequentially. Do a little work. It's fairly easy just to sit, think, dream, and write.
If you don't take advantages that are right in front of you to make things better, you have no one to blame but yourself.
