With you permission, I'd like to make a suggestion...
Affirmations are very powerful in manifesting results, and when we worry about what is wrong in our life, we are also affirming the wrong.

Write the stuff you don't like to clear your mind. Then give them all to God (or substitute what you like).

Then move to a positive exercise of writing down what you want. Give those to your own internal dialog. Repeat the positive to yourself over and over, while releasing the lust for its attainment.

And take small steps. Just like an injured olipmic athlete, it takes small steps at first, but they always return to their world class levels.

Good Luck,

Edmilio